its almost that time

its time to celebrate the ones you love. the weather is getting more christmasy.. its almost my birthday..


i need to put up christmass light..
i love this girl.


i want her to know.

christmas 08 bitches

i want....

that big boat with that sun set. with you.


love the idea

its true

i love you.

It takes a sudden turn

after being on a upward path, and only moving higher and higher day after day, hour and afterhour, even minute after minute.

my worries start to catch up to me. I can only pray i'll be ok, but with the constant "what if" lingering in my head, i'll never know. As i sit here to write what should be a entry i never have to make. I deprive my self sleep only hoping, that something comes over me, putting me to sleep, waking me up tomorrow. and everything is good.

"When will i wake out of this nightmare" and "everything is ok" is all i have to tell myself.

I guess i wont know til tomorrow, and hopefully i dont take that sudden turn


again

Make a Toast!

The END from Kevin Johnson on Vimeo.

Dec. 16th

808's &Heartbreaks
The entire album is sung by West with the use of Auto-Tune, aside from one verse by Young Jeezy and a duet with Lil Wayne. Kanye has stated that he loves using Auto-Tune and is dismayed that nowadays the term has been commonly associated with being wack. He personally loves the Auto-Tune and considers it "the funnest thing to use." He compares the situation to when he was a child and thought the color pink was cool until someone told him "it was gay," going on to state how the views of society can rob a person of their confidence and self-esteem. Kanye also classified the album as Pop, saying that similar to auto-tune, "People think pop is bad, but Michael Jackson was pop and who can compare to him?" In a sense, the album is is about emotional nakedness, the freedom to do what you want to do regardless of the opinions inherently held by others.[2]

Detox

And what about the album release date?

“I was really hoping to have it out this year, but it’s going to have to be pushed back a while because of some other things I’ve got to work on,” he continues, sitting in the lounge of the recording studio where he spends all those hours behind the buttons. He’s still two or three tracks away from calling it finished, he says.


“That gives me something to look forward to. Nothing pulls you back into the studio more than the belief that your best record is still ahead.”

read more at:
http://articles.latimes.com/2007/sep/23/entertainment/ca-dre23

life

now.

its different.

i dont really know how. but fuck it.

ill take what i get it.






gangsta

i really dont know

its hard to be stuck in a phase in my life when i really "dont know" anything..you always want any idea of where your live is going to go.

if anything.. "broken" by lifehouse tells me, better than i can. Lyrically. listen.


im going to san Diego in about 30 minutes i really hope something positive happens. and it doesnt screw me over more then before..
ahhhh


< k3vin

it's hard to...

constantly wonder. With wondering comes worry. I really wish I could just not give a shit but at the same time I know it's because I still have all of IT still:/

Ehh I dont care what they say. No one has any sort of clue, they don't know you like I do, call me dumb but I cant help it. FUCk

fade into the background

it really stinks when you live in just the moment for little moments here and there. and in the long run you sit and wonder, "if. or when all this bullshit will end"

I really thought that i was a better person that what im getting in return.


to karma: what the fuck did i do, to get this?



-kevin

eh

after having a giant family party you would be surprised on how many people ask me "this" or "that" and how much shittier it made me feel about the situation. ehhh

besides that it was nice to see errbody.

...word spreads around my family. shit.

i really.

have no idea.

i dont know if i should sit and wait, or if i should stop and move to the next square.

i dont think i could do either ever if i tried.

i want to be the way i should, i wish i could take back all ive done. i dont have any words but. sorry.

i dont have any other thing to say but .

i love you. and want to

i Am...

obsessed with "lost"

by gorilla zoe....
fuckkkkkkk




its me.

im...

scared, confused, lost, in trouble, sad, happy, hopefully, wait.. no im not.

im praying, im... waiting, really really emotional =/.



i just want

<3 |_ik3 b4,

i dont want to say goodbye. even when i should..


remember. us

mentally, physically,emotionally,

exhausted .


why?

i just really cant stop.. i wish it would all just be ok, and i was ok, i really need to be ok.

s.my.s

join me

stop everything your doing, if your music is on, turn it off. close all other internet windows. and just imagine....

your have dinner at home with your family having the best time, you can feel the love in the air, they all love you, you love them back.

out of no where.the dinner table your at slowly starts to stretch and and it becomes longer and longer, with this, your family gets a little bit further away from you, but oh well... there still right here. and you can work through that. you still see them and you still have all that excitement and your still full of all that love. but then out of no where. your house for some reason gets thrown upside down. Some outside force literally picked up your house and dropped in on its head. You see everything flash before your eyes. All of your pictures of your family and loved ones are falling because of gravity in front of your eyes. in total slow motion. your couch, t.v, and even the table you were JUST sitting at for dinner is all falling, in slow motion. Then BOOM Reality kicks in again and nothing is in slow motion. matter of fact. your house is completely fucked up. its all turned upside down. The weirdest thing about it. is that your family is gone. Not dead, they just vanished.. at first you wonder.. like are they okay? did they just run outside to avoid getting hurt. or are they really defying all logic, and some how left. After looking for days. around the house, around the neighborhood. you come to the realization that there gone. You dont know if there ok. you don't even know if they going through all this too, But as of now. there gone. all you know is, that no one else's house got flipped upside down, and that really no one else is going to be able to help you build that new house. On top of that. your family left.


...just because something seems right doesn't mean that it is, and doesn't mean that at any moment it could all leave.

now imagine that. and would you try to build your house alone,if so, where do you start. or continue to avoid actuality and look for your family?

Augusto Uno

I puzzle up my words while I piece another concoction
Cause im stubborn with the thought that failure was never an option









21 years of marriage. wow.

i lost part of me..

ok.. so there was a bonfire today. it was fun. really smokey and i was dirty. when i got home to take a shower i did something i would never do. and this happened...

untitled

umm yeah, not too much to say, pretty much it seems like these last few days have been going way slower and have less excitement. i think when i go to the beach it will all change.


yesterday i hung out with akash at the spectrum and then stopped by northwood high to talk some more. after that i went to travis's water polo game which he won so im happy for him. it was just me and lana there. unfortunatly there was a party after. i couldnt go, i wasnt known within the water polo community. its alright i dont know if i would. after that i kinda did nothing. and eventually i saw step brothers. it was pretty funny. its nice to laugh that hard so it made me happy,

i got woken up today by fucking workers in my house that are changing the tiles in my bathroom.. yeahh so i got about 3-4 hours of sleep. i didnt fall asleep to really earily last night. and. now what do i do. i cant take a shower.


to however is reading this.
thanks.

the dark knight

yeah i know its been a while. but. i want to say. mike made it possible for us to get amazing seats. haha it made the whole "camp out" experience..

16.5 hours waiting. dammmnn

New camera

i got a new camera, so. i took pictures.. haha

i feel like david, while hes not here. someones gotta do it

worst nightmare

Complements of Imogen Heap "The moment i said it"

the moment I said it,
The moment I opened my mouth
Lead in your eyelids,
Bulldozed the life out of me

I know what you're thinking,
But darling you're not thinking straight
Sadly things just happen we can't explain

It's not even light out,
But you've somewhere to be
No hesitation
No I’ve never seen you like this,
And I don't like it
I don't like it
I don't like it at all

Just put back the car keys,
Or somebody's gonna get hurt
Who are you calling at this hour?
Sit down, come round, I need you now
We'll work it all out together,
But we're getting nowhere tonight
Now sleep, I promise it'll all seem better,
Somehow in time

It's not even light out,
Suddenly (suddenly) oh, you've somewhere to be
With no hesitation
Oh, I've never seen you like this
You're scaring me
You're scaring me
You're scaring me to death

Don't…ohh (smash)
Please don't…ohh (and a-[please] nother one)
Don't…ohh (smash)
Please don't…ohh (and a-[please] nother one)

I'm losing you, I'm losing you
Trust me on this one
I've got a bad feeling,
Trust me on this one
You're gonna throw it all away
With no hesitation


(Smash)

present: kevin

I worked so hard,
to get where I am,
tell me why I feel this way?
Cause everywhere I go, people don't know,
that I'm about to go crazy
I pushed so hard,
like everyday to really give a damn,
what they say
I'm a keep my head up,
I'm a make it to the top, now tell me who will ride for me?

i've never been in this sort of position with my emotions. i feel stuck, and either way i go, doesnt work. ill just try to throw it to the side, but in then end. it comes up and its whatever. im really tired of it all. i want things to go back to the way they were. i just dont know what else i can do but pray. i loved my spirit before this time.

love you, 4eAeB

i feel

like my life as gotten to the point where everything is a routine. I'm kinda sad now, maybe its cuz its summer and im bored, i just feel like i wake up. go on my laptop for an hour or more. then get ready for work: work, then go home and then go out and hang out with friends. and then it repeats the next day.


i'm really dying for a day where i can break my norm and do something thats adventurous or exciting.











thats dope.




love. kev

Summer Trip!

check my myspace blog.

Prom.

I can't beileve that there is no more school dances left... kinda sad.. but i enjoyed it, thank you everyone.

*the pictures of all your feet/shoes my mom took.. its on some other camera. haha i know y'all dying to get those..

long time no see

ok. an update on my life.

haha in basketball class. we aquired akash. who pretty much did the same thing that pau gasol has done for the lakers. and you know what happened there...

Oh yeah, droped 39. Good job Bowen

Best Bench in the league.

sorry, new champ coming

4 more games

Besides rooting for the lakers lately.. i spent most of my time at work, or just relaxing. I made this video for jenny's birthday and for everyone that helped me with that thank you so much!

and yes.. schools almost over. wow. it was quick.

tyler is also coming back down to irvine to live. so finally.

ill update you later. haha hopefully not such a long gap.

phew

after a what seemed to be the longest weekend of my life i finally feel good again.

sometimes you need those shitty days to realize the greatness of a "normal" day.

i know for sure im not going to take any of the for granted.

i love her.

Pt. 2

San Diego Pictures

San Diego Wild Animal Park

San Diego City